Aaaargggghhhh

Hate it when that happens! I was so engrossed on the blog I was writing just now and I finally completed it. Then I found out that I lost my internet connection! I checked my drafts and it wasn’t there! It’s just so unbelievable and frustrating! I poured my whole heart into that blog and now it’s gone 🙁 The momentum is gone too, I couldn’t redo now, I’m just aaarrgghh!

But then I heard a very still voice ask me, “Was that blog really to glorify me or yourself?” Wow! It dawned on me that maybe God did not allow me to publish that blog because I was too busy being creative, trying to impress the readers that I failed to check my heart. Yes, God sometimes prevents us from doing things because He knows He will not be glorified.

As I am writing this confession, I remember my devotion this morning. It was in the  book of Malachi. God was reminding the people to be faithful, to be faithful to their wives and even in their tithing. 

God wants me to be faithful in everything I do, in everything He has entrusted me with.

He wants me to be faithful to my husband of eleven years.

¹⁵ Didn’t the Lord make you one with your wife? In body and spirit you are his.^[a] And what does he want? Godly children from your union. So guard your heart; remain loyal to the wife of your youth. ¹⁶ “For I hate divorce!” says the Lord, the God of Israel. “To divorce your wife is to overwhelm her with cruelty,^[b]” says the Lord of Heaven’s Armies. “So guard your heart; do not be unfaithful to your wife.” Malachi 2:15-16

 

Faithful to my children as I take care of them and continue to home educate them as long as God wants me.

¹⁸ “So commit yourselves wholeheartedly to these words of mine. Tie them to your hands and wear them on your forehead as reminders. ¹⁹ Teach them to your children. Talk about them when you are at home and when you are on the road, when you are going to bed and when you are getting up. Deuteronomy 11:18-19

Faithful to my profession as continue to provide health services when needed.

²³ Whatever you do, do your work ^[a]heartily, as for the Lord ^[b]rather than for men, Colossians 3:23

Faithflu to my leaders by submitting to their authority and being accountable to them.

¹³ Submit yourselves for the Lord’s sake to every human institution, whether to a king as the one in authority, ¹⁴ or to governors as sent ^[c]by him for the punishment of evildoers and the praise of those who do right. 1 Peter 2:13-14

 

And most of all faithful to God who saved me from eternal separation from Him. Faithful to Jesus Christ whom God used to cleanse me from all my sin and transform my life anew. 

I know that there would be times I would be unfaithful but I know God would surely remind to go back to the commitment I made with Him and that is for Him to be the Lord of my life. At the end of my so-called life, I am hoping my God will tell me, “Well done, my good and faithful servant.”

⁴² And the Lord said, “Who then is the faithful and sensible steward, whom his master will put in charge of his ^[a]servants, to give them their rations at the proper time? ⁴³ Blessed is that slave whom his ^[b]master finds so doing when he comes.Luke 12:42