I have been praying for a specific item for quite some time now. I was unaware that my prayer has already been answered recently until the Lord himself reminded me. You see, I have been asking the Lord to change the heart of my husband regarding a decision we both have to make about the future of our family. Sorry but I’d rather keep the details to myself first:-)
I think I have been praying about this item for a year or two now and honestly, I have lost hope somehow. I felt that even if I try to persuade my husband to be open to my suggestions, he just wouldn’t budge. He is not just that type. But nothing is impossible with God. I have to keep the faith so I included this item again in my prayer list.
Ezekiel 36:26 says, ” I will give you a new heart and put a new spirit in you; I will remove from you your heart of stone and give you a heart of flesh.”
Truly, I saw how God has worked in the heart of my husband. God has opened the closed heart of my husband so that he could see the possibilities and opportunities for our family. Lately, he has been busy studying these opportunities for us online and has been taking small steps too towards that goal.
Have you ever had those “aha moments” with God? Well, I surely had one just last week. It was then that God made me see how He has worked in the heart of my husband. I think it was around breakfast and my husband and I were talking about something. Then, he just blurted something like, “I’ve realized that God probably wanted us to do this. So I might as well give it a shot. If He wants us to go through it then He would allow things to happen.” I totally agreed with what he said. And it was only after he left did I got a sort of slap at the back of my head, as if God was saying, “Hey, didn’t you hear what your husband said?” Hello??? Isn’t that what you were praying for?”
First of all, God doesn’t talk that way, it’s just how I imagined Him talking to me, His dense daughter 🙂 When I realized what was happening, I almost cried. I was overwhelmed by gratitude towards God that I really felt Him so close to me that day.
Over lunch, I just had to share my feelings to my husband. I fought back the tears first, and told him that I was happy that he had a change of heart. I know that it was God working in him.
We presented our plans to God and we are waiting whether he will approve it or not. It’s easy to say we will accept whatever His decision is especially if it’s not favorable but even if he does not give us His blessing, I will look at it a different perspective. I will see it as his loving hand protecting us or his hand showing us another way towards achieving that dream of ours. I mean, the earth is His and everything in it, right? He owns everything in this world, He even owns our life. So whatever he wills for us, we will obey.
1 The earth is the Lord’s, and everything in it,
the world, and all who live in it;
2 for he founded it on the seas
and established it on the waters. Psalm 24:1-2